Cigarettes

This is my first blogging exp.. i heard much about blogging through my company colleagues and was thinking what exactly is there in this.

The first topic i would like to talk about is Cigarettes.. what do you think ? do you think i don't have any topic to start with...? is it...? not exactly..i love smoking and this alone is not the reason for me to take this topic its also because i am trying to stop this habit now. The long white paper pipe filled with some leaves(couldn't get its name) which has nicotine substance in it makes me think about it every time. I don't know what exactly is there in it but somehow is always there in my mind.

I first tried smoking during my first year of graduation. One of my friend thought me how to in take the smoke through my lungs take it till the bottom of my stomach and release it after that. I felt great in doing that and also felt adventurous when i tried that. finally after couple of puffs and little coughs in doing so, i was able to do what my friend has exactly thought me . I looked straight the road and started smoking but during that initial practice i was bending my head had puffs , not showing smoke coming out of my nostrils thinking that everyone nearby is watching me and me alone.

Then i used to get one or two cigarettes from near by petty shop a day stand beside the road and experience that time greatest movements. Return to my hostel sharing my experience with my cigarette smoking friends as a secret so that my other friends who doesn't smoke feel that they are not with the bad company(ME). As days pass on every month when my parents send money my first intention is to buy a pack of cigarettes and have it as a stock. But this lead me to take cigarettes daily not one or two but 5 to 6 a day.

All these days i never felt cigarette smoking is doing anything bad to me or my health as its name says "CIGARETTE SMOKING IS INJURIOUS TO HEALTH". I started doing my masters in computer science and these days i would buy a pack a day and smoke them completely . No other entertainment we had than bunking classes in college , go to a tea stall get a cup of tea and having a cigarette with it. I used to try having a puff and without releasing it i would have sip of tea , then release the smoke since this i got learn't from movies .

Ok leave all the above like how i learnt smoking . Now i want to quit smoking what should i do..
i started reading papers that different diseases come because of smoking. Stats says some virus would come in if we are smoking atleast 10 to 15 years or people would get infected by cancer after some years . I am afraid because since i started smoking if i calculate the years i am 5 yo 6 yrs old in this. i am already half way now so thought of quiting it.

I really felt, how much ever i felt it as adventurous and interesting now a days i feel the pain of quiting smoking and how it bothers my regular life . If i dont have money or little money which can be either used for dinner or buying cigarettes i better buy the cigarette and starve for food that night. That is the case now. Now i feel how much i am addicted to smoking habit. How much ever the important work is or the meeting is and if its getting late and first i would come out of the meeting buy the cigarettes and then only i will return to the previous work.

Getting cautious of what i was trying to do all these days, now i don't buy any pack of cigarettes , i used to have a cigarette early morning once i get up.. i cut that somehow. Just taking a cigarette after breakfast, a cigarette in middle of the day and two in the night (one after travelling from office to home and another after dinner). You know now a days i am feeling very hungry and that too exactly at that particular time . feeling very fresh, my lips are becoming rose as it was before. Able to concentrate on work at a stretch of 2 to 3 hrs. .. hmm..i was able to see a major difference from my previous routine in life...

Good rite..my coming days job is to quit smoking completely.. hmm.. yes will do that. !!